I did a bad bad thing...

I have a confession. *sigh* I'm not sure how to put this... but... *whine*... I went a little overboard at Sephora this past month. No... really... it's bad. Lol.

I did a complete overhaul with my cosmetics and skin care products. Lately I've had such a terrible time with my skin. Seems like EVERY SINGLE product I'd buy from Target or wherever wasn't good enough for my skin. It either left me feeling like there wasn't enough coverage or I was over caked. Never perfect. And I wasn't buying the cheapest stuff they sold at Target either. Fed up and over it... I walked into Sephora. Now, I've used MAC quite a bit in the past but not having access to a MAC or Sephora close by where I live wasn't convenient for me. I absolutely loved MAC but I wanted to venture out and try something different. Oh boy... did I ever!! I read review after review on Sephora.com about different products to get an idea where I should start. I headed straight for the NARS counter and it was love at first sight <3 Then I headed to the BareMinerals counter.. and... it was ALL over. I found my match. BM is a lifesaver!! I've seen their ads on TV probably a million and 8 times but never put a whole lot of thought into it. I'm now hooked. This is by far the BEST product. It always feels so light and non-cakey on my face. A++++!! I did buy the NARS foundation in the SPF Powder, Matte Liquid, concealer and primer along with BM Original Foundation and Primer, Sephora's Mineral brush... and a few (many) other things... ;) You'd think I would have stopped their. A couple of weeks later... I was back. Spent too much $$ but completely worth it!! I've gained so much information from the staff. Oh!! And probably the same week... I ordered the Naked 1 and Naked 2 pallets by Urban Decay.... their eye shadow Primer and Lip Junkie lip gloss in Naked. The eye shadows are a PERFECT match for my teal colored eyes.

Now I'm going to focus my research in finding a good skin care system. I've used Clinique in the past and it's been fabulous. Also, I've looked into Philosophy (looooove their Cabana Girl lotion) brand and from the reviews I've read they seem to be a great brand as well. The associate at Sephora said I have 'normal' skin. Which... caught me completely off guard. I always thought I had oily skin... but now that I think about it... it's probably just sweat. I do have the occasional dry patches that'll flake a bit. My main problem was not removing all my make up properly. I typically just used a make up remover towelette before I went to bed. Come to find out... those remove barely ANYTHING. Sometimes I'd go back over my face with toner and it would pick up EVERYTHING that was left behind. So... all that stuff was just sitting on my face. All night. Ick!! Thinking the whole time I was doing it right!! Now I see the error of my ways and I intend on fixing them.

The point of this post?? I GOT NEW MAKE UP!! WEEEEEEE!! :D

I hate that feeling...

I'm at work right now and just a few minutes ago, I felt completely and utterly confused. Some dates were off on some things I've been working on and I had no idea how they got changes and all of a sudden it gets super overcast outside. For a split second... I panic. Am I really at work?? Should I be here?? Is it Monday?? Has a couple of days passed?? WTF?!?! Lol. Who does that?? I'm back to normal now... but that's just weird and isn't the first time that's happened.

...and life goes on.

I can't finish the 50 Shades series....

I don't want the story to end!! I'm so worried that it won't end how I want it to end. I'll be very very upset and ruined!! Lol We'll see... I wanna skip to the end soooo badly!! Must. Control. Self.

My very own 50 Shades of Grey

Well... I just finished the first book in the 50 Shades series and started on the 2nd yesterday. First off... I'm in love with this story!! Yes, some may think it's pornographic... but it's a very twisted love story. I was once in a similar relationship like Christian and Ana's. He wasn't the wealthy business man like Christian but it was VERY similar. He was a complete control freak and wasn't the type to fall or get attached to someone. Women were his toys that he collected. I had no idea what it was about him... but I was instantly drawn to him... and he was to me. He introduced me to many many things... and I made him feel. We went back and forth for almost two years. He was beyond confusing like Christian and went back and forth on everything. From the beginning I knew that he had tons of deep, embedded issues and he was a tough one to crack. He had this mile long wall wrapped around himself that kept him numb to any sort of emotion. I couldn't conform to the 'submissive' person he wanted me to be. I could in one area but not the next and he wouldn't put up with that.... but couldn't let me go. We would go our separate ways for a while but he would always creep back into my life and I was smitten. We were like water and oil. Fire and ice. Gasoline and spark. Never the perfect combination. He was dangerous but I couldn't let him go. Neither could he. We did our dance for almost 2 years until the tables changed. He became that scared little boy... frightened to lose me but it was too late. He had stripped me of every single feeling and emotion I'd ever felt. I was basically an empty shell and had nothing else to give him. It was so draining!! I basically had to completely fix this broken guy and put his pieces back together while mine were falling all over the floor. Once he realized that he needed me more than ever... I realized that I didn't need him at all. He'd sucked the life out of me and I needed learn how to breath again. Every once in a while... I think about him and miss him and hope that he's doing well. I know for a fact that in those two years... I learned a whole lot from him. Can I put it into words?? Probably not... but I know I did.

Reading these books brought back all those feelings. Being completely and utterly confused at the hands of a broken person. He had my head spinning around a million miles per hour and I couldn't breath. But I felt safe with him.

... Oh to be young again!! Young. Stupid. Clueless.